Life’s Transformations

It’s been hard to find the words lately — to express the quiet shifts happening beneath the surface. You know those moments when life feels both incredibly ordinary and deeply personal? That’s where I’ve been. Caught between two very different lives… and wondering, is that such a bad thing?

One is my work life — where I’m doing the inner work, facing the resistance, and growing in ways that stretch me. The other is my home life — this calm, sacred space I’ve poured love into. It’s soft, slow, and exactly what I dreamed of for so long.

The thing is, my professional life isn’t “wrong” or bad. It’s just been waiting patiently for me to bring the same intention to it that I’ve brought to the rest of my life. The truth is, where your attention goes, your energy flows — and I can see that so clearly now. My personal world flourished because I gave it the time, the love, the focus.

So now… it’s time to shift. To soften into a new version of growth.

And no, I’m not talking about my blog or my business — those are my creative playgrounds. That journey is still unfolding in the most beautiful, exciting ways. I’m talking about the job I spend most of my time at — the structure that holds my everyday life.

And here’s the thing: I don’t hate it. I actually feel really lucky. My job has allowed me to create the home life I love, and that’s a gift I’ll always be grateful for. But still, there’s growth to be done — especially in the space of emotional intelligence and presence.

My work isn’t just a 9-5. I work away, which makes the contrast between my two worlds feel even more dramatic. When I come home, it feels like a holiday — my time is mine, the ocean is close, and everything slows down. So I asked myself… why can’t I feel this way every day?

The answer? I’ve never truly focused on making it feel that way.

I believe — with my whole heart — that you can create anything you set your mind to. I’m not building my business out of desperation or escape. I’m building it because it brings me joy, because it’s a part of who I am — like someone who loves painting or running. But in my work life, I’ve let small things weigh heavily. I’ve given away peace in places where I could’ve chosen grace.

Recently, while chatting with friends, I had a big realisation:
You can change this if you really want to. And if you choose not to — that’s okay too — but then you need to own that choice.

So I’m choosing change.

What does that look like?

It looks like softening my grip and giving others the space to be who they are. I came from a workplace where uniformity was the norm, and now I’m in a space that welcomes individuality. It’s time I let go of old conditioning. I don’t need to carry rules that no longer apply.

It looks like choosing what matters. If something won’t hold value four weeks from now, it doesn’t need all my energy today. I’ll always hold myself to a high standard, but I no longer need everything to be curated, polished, or perfect. Some things just need to be done so I can pour my heart into the things that truly matter.

It looks like returning to my routines — the ones that made me feel alive and grounded. I actually set my “new year” intentions last October, and I was already living my vision when January rolled around. But somewhere along the way, I let a few things slip. One of them was a morning routine that made every day feel like I was still living my ‘holiday life’ — even when I wasn’t home.

Why did I let that go? I’m not sure. But I know I’m ready to bring it back.

My intention now is simple: to remember that this life — the one I’m living right now — is the one I was dreaming of twelve months ago.

I made it. I did the thing I once thought was impossible. But in the process, I forgot to pause and soak in the beauty of what I’ve built. I forgot to feel the magic I’d promised myself I’d feel when I arrived.

If you’re reading this, I hope it finds you in a season where you can see how far you’ve come. There’s a lot of noise out there pushing you to quit your job and chase freedom. And if that’s your truth, beautiful. But for me? I’m building both. I’m honouring both. I like my job — and I love my business. With the right energy and intention, I believe we can design a life that holds all of it.

And it feels good. I reached last year’s goals — and I’m more empowered than ever to meet this year’s with clarity, softness, and joy.

Here’s to creating a life that feels like a deep exhale.